Dreams

It's funny the dreams I've been having lately. The past few nights I've dream that I ate cooked and junk food and ruined my fast. I always wake up freakin out until I realize that I did not ruin my fast. I went to the library and checked out a few raw books. I need to refresh my knowledge My son Steven has been eating an 80% raw lunch. We just need to work on breakfast, snacks and dinner.
I did purchase to jars of raw almond butter. It was on sale for 12.79. You can't beat that with a stick for raw almond butter. He likes the AB with agave and bananas. He will have that as part of his lunch.
I just realized it has been 29 days...wow. I'm going strong. 63 more days to go.

Michele
Start Weight-231.4
Current Weight- 208.4
Goal Weight- 140.0

Time flies when your having fun.

It is day 18. Time is flying by it seems like. It is already day 18. I was telling my mom yesterday this fast/feast seems more pleasant than my last fast. I've figured out why it's the green juices. My last fasts I have always drunk store brought juices. They did not fill me up. I seem to always be hungry. It is so much better to juice your own juices while fasting.
I went to bed at 1:30 last night I was watching a DVD of the TV series "24". I woke up at 6am. Just wide awake......okay I know thats suppose to happen with fasting. You need less and less sleep, you have more energy, etc. I laid there until I went back to sleep. Like hell I was getting up at 6am.
You know it's amazing what God will do for you. He does give you your hearts desire. He is a wonderful and awesome God. I've been eyeing this new cell phone for me and my mom. Everywhere I looked it was $250.00 dollars or more. I only budgeted about 29 dollars for it because I thought if I renew my contract with Sprint I could get it for that price. Well no it was for new customers only. I looked around for days for this phone at a cheaper price. I finally went to Best Buy. My mother and I walked out of Best Buy with two new Razer phones free!! I was so happy.
I'm going to work on my english paper and make more juice.
Starting Weight 231.4 (08/23/07)
Current Weight 213.0 (09/09/07)

Michele

12th day

I did have broth yesterday. I think that is the reason for my pound weight gain. Technically broth is not allowed on juice feasting but I wanted some. I am feeling okay. I had to stay up late last night to study. I will be doing that this evening as well. I think I am going to do a salt water flush today.
M

8 Day

It's my 8th day on my juice feast. Just 84 more days to go. So far so good. I am having a hard time getting in a gallon of juice a day. I seem to only get a bout a liter and a liter and a half on good days. I just can't drink all that juice right now. Maybe later in this journey I will be able to drink a gallon. I took my first Cascara Sagrada herb caps (herbal stimulant) last night while I had a break in pre-algebra and as of this morning it still has not work. I hope it doesn't decide to work while I am at work.
. I do have a lot on my plate with my son's new school which is a 30 minute drive, my schooling in the evenings. I seem to be holding up pretty well.
Starting Weight- 231.4
Current Weight- 220.0


In Health,
M

89 more to go!!!!

Well I did it!!!
I started a 92 day juice/feast fast.
Why you may ask.
I need to do this. I was spiraling out of control with my eating and drinking habits again. I've come such a long way since January 2005 with finding raw, becoming a raw teacher, losing weight, not drinking alcohol to spiral back down that black hole again.
I needed this journey. I knew I needed to do this. I fought it for weeks. I joined Weight Watchers hoping that would help of course it did not. I fought and fought. I rationalize I would just eat mostly raw and count points with Weight Watchers that was a disaster.
I woke up one morning and turned on the radio to hear a pastor talk about fasting. He said there five reasons you should go on a fast. I had four reasons.

1- Super Calamity
Which thank God this has not happen to me.
2- Major Decision, God's Will
My desire when my lease is up in this apartment in 7 months is to purchase a home. I need to find my purpose according to God's will. I would like to work for my self and go to school during the day so I can be with my son. I need to find that skill and passion to help me achieve work at home success.
3- Spiritual warfare, breakthrough
I want to have a closer relationship with God.
4-Increase Intercessory effectiveness
I want to be able to pray on behalf of my family and friends.
5-Personal repentance, deliverance.
I need deliverance from food addiction and the desire for alcohol.

Those are are the reasons. I had a birthday 6 days ago. I am so grateful to see another year. I think of all the people who were not bless to see their next birthday and I decided I will not see another year of this misery. I owe it to God who has blessed me thus far and is waiting patiently for me to see the light, I owe it to myself, my son who deserves a bless and happy mother.


I read Angela Stokes Juice feasting book. You can check out her website at http://www.rawreform.com/
She is such a sweet woman. She had returned my emails and told me to go forth with this journey. She told me I can do this and I will be fine in school.






I am off to dry skin brush, drink my wonderful green juice of kale, cucumber, spinach,parsley, celery and apple.

In health.

Michele

School

I started school yesterday. I am taking night classes at a local community college. Pre-algebra...sheesh!
For the past week I have been eating all raw. I made a wonderful tomatoe soup that a friend of mine gave me the recipe. I've been eating pretty much just fruits, salads and tomatoe soup.
My weight.....I don't want to talk about it. I feel in my spirit I am being led to a place that will have a major impact on my yo yo dieting anmd many other things. I have not decided if I want to start this journey as I just started school and my son Steven will be attending a new school this year. I have to really pray on it and see if I am willing to start this journey inspite of all the activites I have going on now in my life.
Once I start this journey I will post what it is. I want to make sure I am mentally able to do this.
Time to go study pre-algebra.

M

Weight Watchers

I went to Payless this past Saturday and met this girl who lost 85 pounds in a year doing Weight Watchers. Well.....I went and joined yesterday. I had to do something. I am just not sticking to anything. I hope and pray I can stick to this. I think the meetings will help. I am going to set my goal weight to be 160 pounds and once I reach that weight I will start training hard for my first competiton.
I have 29 points I have to eat everyday. So far I ate 23 points. It is 9pm. I have to find 6 more points to eat. Maybe I will have another Smart One meal.
I am going to change the name of my blog since I am not 100% raw at the moment. I have to figure out a name.
My weight has went up again. I declare it comes back on so fast!! I want to delete this blog but I think I need to keep it as a reminder of the struggle I am having with this weight loss. When I do achieve my desire weight I think the blog will be good to keep to see how far I have come.
Maybe someone else will read it that is going through the same thing and see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I just hope I see my light soon.

M

Doing okay

I have been eating okay this week. I only exercised once. I am planning on getting a elliptical(sp?) machine so I can do cardio first thing in the morning.
I received a email from Schall (http://www.thehealingmeal.com/) it made me feel better. She said you do not need to be 100% raw to achieve the benefits. I need to hear that right now as I am at the moment struggling staying raw. I am not going to beat myself over it. I am so glad that I found the raw lifestyle.
I have been eating 5-6 small meals a day. Lately it's been:
M1- 1/2 cup Oatmeal, egg whites or protein shake.
M2- 1 apple with 1/2 cup of low fat cottage cheese
M3- Chicken breast, 1 cup of veggies and 1/2 cup of brown rice
M4- Protein shake and apple
M5- Salad
M6- Protein shake

I know I can achieve the results I want with an all raw diet but it will take me longer. I am to inpatient. I believe one day I will return to at least 75-80% raw. Right now I want to lose weight, leanout and build my body.
Since I will be exercising 6 days a week. I have decided to try some supplements. My friend Brenda is giving me samples of some products she distributes. Preburn a pre-work out powder and Afterburn. When I get these I will let you know how they do. I am on a mission. I need to achieve this body by August 2008.

M

Body For Life

I am starting my first Body for Life challenge tomorrow. I will do two 12 week challenges. Since my son last day of school is this friday I am going to start going to the gym in the evenings. That way I will not have to worry about him doing homework and being in bed at a decent hour. The gym childcare is open until 8pm. So I will most likely go from 7-8 after Steven's Tae Kwon Do classes.

I will be taking my before photos tonight or tommorrow night. I will take photos every two weeks to document my success. As I might have mentioned before I did give my mom my scale. I am going to go by inches and how my clothes feel. I do have an idea of how much I weight. After my first challenge I will weigh myself. I do know I have gained back weight after my Master Cleasne. I just refuse to get back on the scale. If I do it will put me into a deep depression.

I am excited to see how my body will transform.

Michele

MC over

I lasted 31 days on the MC. My weight went down to 201. I gave my mother my scale after the cleanse so I will not weigh myself.
Now I am going to start exercising. I am going to use the BFL exercise for now and tweak it as I need to. I really want to fo figure competitions. I have had that desire for years now. I never got off my lazy butt to exercise. Well I am going to now. I will be 33 in August. By next August at 34 I want to be able to compete. Can it get done in 15 months? Can I go from 200 pounds to a compete figure? We shall see.

Michele

Day 27

Just 13 more days to go and I am done with the MC. I am really happy I did this. I did the SWF this morning. It seems I still have a lot of cleansing to do. I need to make sure I do the flushes and teas every day. That will be my goal these next thirteen days.

M

Day 21

It has been really hard now to stay true to the MC. I am on day 21...but the last few days to be honest I have snuck food in my mouth chewed it up to taste it and then spit it out. I don't know what is wrong with me. Why would I sabotoge myself when I am doing so good. I need to drink more lemonade and water. I have to continue to rid myself of the junk food, cook food addictions. I am drinking my senna tea now. I do need to pray for strength to continue. I feel on the verge of tears. It does seem so hard.

Michele

Juice Feast

I was really tired yesterday. I went to bed at 5:30 in the evening. I woke up today at 6:15am. I was really tired. I feel really good today. I feel very alert. After church today I will work on getting my apartment together., do some yoga, clean my car out.
After my 40 day MC I will embark on a 20 day juice feast. My last juice fast I mostly drunk bottles juices from the grocery store. This time I am going to pull out the Jack Lalane and start jucing all my veggies. I am thinking of purchasing Angela's Stokes e-book on juice feasting. I am also going to purchase Green for Life.
I am very excited about this. I feel I am coming to terms with my body. I will know longer abuse it like I have in the past. This is going to be a great summer. I am going to transition my son Steven to at least 50% raw. I am going to find a good green drink that he will enjoy so he can have one everyday. Life is great!

Michele

Funny how the mind works.

When I was raw I was craving cooked food. It seem such a struggle the last month or so to stay raw. I always end up back on cooked food, drinking alcohol and junk food. Now that I am doing the master cleanse my mind keeps wondering to all the delicious raw foods not cooked foods but raw. I am craving my tahini salad dressing with a huge salad.
After this cleanse I feel I will enjoy raw more and stick to it like I should. I think I got it this time around. I really can't afford mentally and physicially not to get it.
This morning like an idoit I stepped on the scale. Major disappointment. I gain back almost 2 pounds..WTF!! I think I have a clue why. I need to do my SWF and senna more often. I need to drink more lemonade and more water and I need to become active. I haven't done the yoga dvd since the first time. I will try this weekend. I really need to go walking it's suppose to be really nice this weekend.

Michele

Day 10 of Master Cleanse

All is well here. I have not been taking my senna tea or my SWF. I really need to work on that. I am glad I have made it to 10 days. Last night I had real bad hunger pains almost most to the point of nausea. I had to drink some water I had by the bed. I was to lazy to get up to go to the fridge and drink lemonade.I did a yoga tape for the first time yesterday. I lasted about 7 minutes. It is really hard. I'm not giving up though. I will do it agian today.
M

Day 7

All is well. I am heating up some spring water for my SWF. I do need to go out today and buy some more gallons of spring water. I took senna tea yesterday and it worked in less than 2 hours. That surprised me. It usually takes about 8 hours to work. I am down to 219.4lbs. I really need to force myself to drink more of the lemonade because I am very tired.
I hate the way my breath smells. It is the detox. I can't wait until that is over. Well I'm about to go drink my SWF. Uck!

M

Day 5

Just 35 more days to go woohoo!!
I made another gallon of my lemonade. The gallon I made monday lasted until Thursday. I put less syrup this time and a little more cayenne pepper...boy what a kick that pepper has. I have not been able to do the SWF except once. I will do one tomorrow morning. I still haven't done yoga. I am going to go throught some boxes I have in my living room from moving and make room to do my yoga. I am excited about that. I have notice that I do not drink as much lemonade. I mostly drink it at work and when I get home I have a habit of not drinking anything. I really need to work on that. Now that the weekend is coming up I am sure I will be drinking more.
I will work on a video when I get my camera back. I am lending it to a friend who is going to the Bahamas. I want her to take pics of the Anna Nicole sites...I know..I know...but I really want to see it. :)

In health,
M

Day 3 of Master Cleanse

I am a little irritable today. It seems like everyone and everything is getting on my nerves. It does not help that it’s raining today. I had intense hunger pains earlier to the point of actually hearing my stomach growl. It’s my fault for not drinking anything when I got home last night. I had no liquids at all when I got home around 7:30pm. I just did not feel like drinking anything. I was to lazy to make my tea. I need to really get my gallon of water in everyday. I stayed up way to late last night watching “The Workout” on the Bravo channel. I just did not feel sleepy. I should have been unpacking my apartment.
I am down 2 pounds.
I need to go to bed early tonight so I can get up to do my salt water flush and yoga. That will be my goal tonight.

M

Day 2 of Master Cleanse

I am on day 2 of my 40 day Master Cleanse. I am a little tired but that is to be expected.
This fast I must say it is different than my juice fast I have done in the past. I am looking forward to all the great things I have read about the Master Cleanse. Google Master Cleanse to learn more. I have to get to work will post later.

Michele

One lazy chick!!

Boy I am one lazy chick! It has been forever since I posted. I have got to do better.
My 40 day fast only lasted about 21 days. I decided to fast at least 7 days every quarter.
I have been very inspired reading Angela Stokes blog about her 90 day juice feast. I would love to do something like that. Of course with a 9-5 and the hustle with city life it's just not gonna happen. Maybe when Steven and I are able to visit exotic places and I can relax my body, mind and spirit I will attempt one...well at least a 40 day.
I have been really depressed lately with where I stay. I will be moving out next month. My son and I are really looking forward to the change. I am going to get rid of a ton of stuff. I am such a hoarder. So we will be starting over fresh next month.
I am more adament now in trying to get my son to at least 80% raw. With this move no junk food will enter our new apartment.
With this new apartment I get a free gym membership of a gym up the street. I am excited about that. I am going to buckle down with my fitness.
When I move into my new apartment I will be posting more and will be posting videos of me and my son's journey.

Michele